It is amazing when somebody opens up to you and starts telling you the new path he or she is trying to charter in life or how disconnected the elements are to be put together; i.e. the grievances, the cries, the plans, the feelings, the dissatisfactions, etc, it gives you the feeling that after all, sharing with others might heal some pain and dry the rain. This evening I had two different conversations with two different persons, at two different settings, on two different contexts, but of similar nature that I described earlier.
As if one’s life does not have to chug the pain and hardship that's already tormenting the soul and being, listening to the anecdotes of others make you feel that as if suffering sometime exist infinitely for the better or for worse. Therefore, no matter how much the voice at the back of your head is telling you to put everything to an end because you can’t stand certain things anymore, the fact that the prescription that you could foretell of the other person, that the solutions lie within the problem itself; is an irony, because sometimes you tend to overlook those signs yourself, and albeit all the signals you have received, there is tendency that might be looking onto the outer parameters of the problem, where the solution doesn't exist. And no matter how hard you try to get away from it, it will always haunt you back, just like an endless loop in any open system. After all we are organic beings.
Sometimes, I always ponder whether getting back into the loop to another being in the system either for processing that information or acquiring that advice will make you any better, so that every tight corner could be turned into solution. Interestingly, I discovered later that sometimes when a person search for self actualization at the juncture of his or her life comes to you, for comfort; it might just as well be the signal that you shall follow suit. Being an attentive listener to what this person has to say, I took note of every pointer and made attempt to lead and recommend any suitable prescription or at least, offer my empathy. And for crying out loud, I do expect the symmetrical sentiment from the other end.
While attempting to permutate every possible combination of solutions to the problems I have been rationalizing earlier, I can’t help but to initiate a conversation of which otherwise would have been a boring journey home. It didn’t take me long to figure that this person’s repeatedly mentioning of unequal distribution of wealth in this country is the anathema of the political scene that had forced this fellow to take a neutral stand; because after all the sweeteners promised by the local leaders; those promises are now becoming dust ,blown away to point of nowhere to be seen and given back to the people. It is story like this made me determine that if only one day I could establish a foundation of which its perpetuity upon my wealth is given to make possible the dream of the humankind in need.
I have always hoped that I could realize that dream in the near future.
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